He never lets go

I've been thinking a lot lately of some of the things I have spoken about in other posts.  Am I posting them for you or for me? Am I paying attention to what I am saying or am I falling short?  Now most people that love me tell me that I am only human and it's in our nature to want to go back to old habits or go back to behaviors that we thought we had long forgot but as someone who is putting my life out for everyone to see I want to do better then that.

So, last night at a gathering I was at, the sermon was about dying to self and leaving things at the altar.  But most importantly not picking those things back up.  Once they are in His hands, it does us no good to take them back.  But as you know from other posts, I almost always do.  So last night I prayed about that and what that means in my life and then I took a HUGE step of faith.  I stopped worrying and turned it all over to Him.  I've seen Him work huge miracles in my life, surely He won't leave me stranded in my self-doubt and deepening anxiety at this moment in my life either. So without knowing what was coming next I let go, I am totally dependent on Him, His mercy and His grace. 

There is nothing I can do to change my circumstances, but He can.  There is nothing I can say to change my circumstances, but He will speak when the time is right.  Worrying or being anxious isn't going to help me move forward, but He comforts me with His Spirit.  I am in the belly of the whale, He has hold of me and He will put me where I need to be. 

There's nothing you can do once you are in the whale but wait and see and know that He has just saved you from drowning.  Drowning is a terrible way to die, I imagine.  Watching your life slip away and re-living all of your memories, good and bad, it really makes you think, it puts your life in perspective and if you are rescued you know you can't turn back.

Some people run from Him when there is trouble, even those who have had life changing experiences.  We can't ignore Him. His arms are long and He always brings us back.  We can't just go through the motions, we must set our eyes on Him and not look back.  Sometimes I think He allows us get so low and then sends in the whale because if we hadn't gotten to that place, the whale wouldn't be that big of a deal.  We would pass it off as something less then spectacular, we might not even learn from it.

Are you drowning? Are you waiting for rescue? My advice is to look towards the heavens and call out for Him.  Doesn't have to be beautiful.  Doesn't have to be perfect.  Your eyes open or close.  Just ask for rescue.  He hears your cry and help will be on the way.