In His name

We are singing my theme song at Church this coming Sunday (in case you want to listen, here is the classic version and the contemporary version) and this Sunday has a significance with the song, so I just had to write about it or I would never be able to focus on studying for my test, so here goes...

You know I am all about signs, always asking for them and always looking for them, so singing Trust and Obey next Sunday speaks to me.  When I saw the set list I immediately called a friend of mine to ask what it ment, and she in her wisdom wouldn't give me an answer but she did say, "what does it mean to you?"

So what does it mean to me?  I'm not exactly sure, so bear with me as I talk out loud...

The first verse says: 

When we walk with the Lord
  In the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way;
  While we do His good will,
  He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey. 

I'd like to that I walk with Him on a daily basis, but like we talked about today in Sunday School we all doubt from time to time and as you know I certainly have had my moments of doubt.  I'd like to think I have seen His glory in my life.  I've certainly seen my share of miracles and seen Him pour out His mercies.  I hope that I spread His good will and share His love with others around me and like my post from the other day, I certainly know that He is abiding with me.

The second verse says this:

Not a shadow can rise,
  Not a cloud in the skies,
But His smile quickly drives it away;
  Not a doubt or a fear,
  Not a sigh or a tear,
Can abide while we trust and obey.

 This verse is a little tougher for me...Am I always looking for His goodness? Am I always looking for that rainbow after the storm?

Interesting, let's talk about that a little more...You know about my storms, you might not know the details but you certainly know that there have been several, but do I always talk about where His light shines and clears the clouds?  I think I have a little but probably not as much as I should, but I think singing this song next Sunday is one of those moments when His light will be shining into my storm.  However, I don't know exactly where, when or how and that is perplexing. 

What does it mean?  Could I have been wrong about some of the things that I have said about what I have been hearing or not hearing?  I tend to shoot from the hip, could my instincts have been wrong?  Very few times my instincts have been wrong but believe me they have failed me and failed me miserably.  But what if it doesn't have anything to do with that particular storm and it has all to do with where I am at and His will for my life?  What if I was exactly right in my last post and this song is about victory for where I am in my life at this point?  I have absolutely no idea, but of course time will tell.

Ok, so let's get back to where I am...in the desert/wilderness.  Hearing this song in the desert stirs up all kinds of emotions that I thought I had conquered or at least put in a box labeled do not open, especially since I don't know what it means, but I do know that it has significance.  Speaking of time, you have LOTS of time in the desert, nothing but time and the longer you spend in the desert the more you worry about the time you have on your hands.  I've been trying to keep myself busy while in the desert but now I have to worry about this sign and what it means and I simply don't have enough time to worry about this right now.  That is why I am blogging about it now, so I can move on for now because I will simply have to wait to know what it means.  It has a time and date stamp, I simply must wait but in the meantime let's pray...

Dearest Heavenly Father,

While He was alive Your Son performed many signs and miracles for the people so that they would know that He was the Messiah.  So we naturally ask for signs and miracles because we know that You are capable of making changes in our lives, but like the people of Your Son's time, we don't always know what the sign means. We, like the people of Judea are looking through colored lenses, we are looking for something specific and when it doesn't come in the form we are expecting we often become confused or angry. 

Help me to understand what this sign means and help me to know if it is a sign at all or just a simple coincidence.  Help me not to spend to much time worrying about the sign and it's significance.  Remind me that Your will will be done and that I can't do anything to make it happen any faster and especially remind me that I don't need to pick up what is already Yours.  I've turned my hands up to You.  You have hold of me and I don't need to help You do anything.  You are the Author and Finisher and Your will will be done, in my life and in the lives of people that surround me. 

Remind me that I have things to do and that I need to focus on what I have started because it is Your will for my life.  You put me on this path and You will see me through, remind me to keep my eyes focused on You and the task at hand.  I will Trust and Obey, "Lord, I love You.  Please help me to trust and obey."

In Your Son's great and powerful name...Amen